Vulnerable

I drive my husband nuts because I share too much information. To strangers… to loved ones… to the cats… I just share too much. I fill the void of silence with words. Sometimes just making conversation, sometimes trying to make a connection. I wear my heart on my sleeve and cannot hide it. Even when I am not talking, I am talking with my facial expressions.

            Jake and I disagree in this area. Strongly disagree. He thinks that we need to keep our problems to ourselves. Our issues, our experiences, our trauma’s, our victories, and our tribulations… To a point I understand and can meet him in the middle, but I do believe that there is nothing wrong with sharing an experience sometimes, whether good or bad, when you learned from the experience or you were blessed! Sometimes I believe God sends us through things so that we CAN help others with empathy because we have walked in their shoes. We don’t have to sit there and just listen… say sorry… and try to give a word of advice and hope it sticks. We can help them by sharing our experience and how we made it through. There are things that I don’t share, but I truly can say that, for the most part, God has always nudged me to share my embarrassing things… shameful things… glorifying things! I think of Paul. Probably the loudest over sharer in the bible. He didn’t hold back! He would write to churches and share of what he was going through. David too! I mean… David’s sin’s, grievances, worship… all of it is out there for all of us to read thousands of years later! But he still shared and never hid it because it was what God told him to do.

            Jake and I may never see eye to eye in this area, but I will always try to remain as vulnerable as possible because, sometimes, it isn’t until the moment that God urges me to share that I realize what He is trying to teach me through it. Whether it is an amazing thing that He wants me to see, or it is shame that He is trying to reveal in me… It is typically in that moment that He shows me. It’s like the little nudge toward obedience is what He is waiting for me to heed for Him to finally reveal what He’s been waiting for.

            We have an incredible God. He will allow us to make mistakes. He will bless us when we don’t deserve it. He will also allow us to suffer. He is always there though and sometimes remaining vulnerable to Him is what He wants. Not everyone will share their experiences and trials like I do but be vulnerable with God and those you are closest to. You may be surprised at what you may learn. You may not be alone!

Ecclesiastes 3:7 (KJV)

A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;